Willpower.

Willpower. This is close to the most I have ever weighed in my life. Almost. I guess it could be worse. I write this with no audience, but myself. It's a love hate relationship. So let's begin. I am currently on a vegetarian diet. I am going back to being a vegetarian because I remember when I was a vegetarian, that was the ultimate lowest weight I have ever been in. Probably that and due to the fact, I was living with my sister at the time, and we hardly had any food due to lack of money. But it worked, right now I have been binge eating like crazy, although I do like the taste of food, which it is hard to fast. But I don't want to be fat. I have done this before, and thanks so my wonderful boyfriend sought help and was "all better". Correction - ex-boyfriend, no reason to lie, just be honest. Who is going to judge?

Instead of having tons of goals, I am only going to jot down my goals for the next day, or of the day. I hope I can accomplish them. I am going to take my "diet" pills, and then I won't eat for 24 hours. Just pure liquids, with these "diet" pills this is really easy for me to do. I don't feel hungry at all. The only thing I need to control is the taste of food that I crave. Which is hard, because I live in a place where there is tons of yummy food around, and I have to ability to drive from point A to point B, which could be a food joint. I don't eat fast food and meat. But I hate working out, although I know it's probably the best way but I've done this before and I can do it again. Willpower.

Goal for tomorrow: Liquid Fast.

Madison.